I died before I was born

During my commutes into the city with my mom for work, we come across some random things in our 30+ minute conversations. Today, I learned something new about myself and also something that clears up the strange things about me.

I died once, not long before I came out of the womb. My mom always tells me what a pain I was giving birth to, but it wasn't until now that she told me that my heart stopped beating before I finally came out. (It was either my heart stopped beating or I stopped breathing... something along those lines that mean I died for a couple of seconds.) While my mom was in the hospital waiting for me to come out, she wasn't supposed to sit up or anything, but because it just hurt too much, she did, which caused the incident. And when I finally did come out to embrace this big world and all it has to offer, the doctors "supposedly" checked me for complications during my "death" and everything was okay. But surely they missed something. This has to be the explanation to why I am the way I am. Or or... maybe I'm dead now. This must be hell!! I wish had finals right now just so that statement could be appropriate.

PLEASE don't buy fake bags

Sadly, I'll admit to owning a few bootleg, fake, counterfeit, (whatever you want to call them) bags. I have already contributed to child labor and possibly, terrorism. I guess I could've guessed that some form of sweat shop labor was put into making these bags in some third world country, but I never knew the real story. The incident that saddens me the most is about the one in Thailand a couple of years ago when children, under the age of 10, were found sitting on the floor making these bags. An investigator also found out that these children's legs were broken and tied together from the thigh and lower leg to keep them from mending correctly because the children were complaining about wanting to go outside and play. But that's what children are supposed to do, and now since their legs were unable to grow back properly, they may never be able to play again. Not only does buying fake bags promote these kinds of activities, but it also takes away 750,000 American jobs. Please stop buying fake bags or any form of counterfeit items to decrease and stop demand.

Source: Harper's Bazaar January 2009 issue with Victoria Beckham on the cover

Some Celebrity Gossip

It was during my break at work when I stumbled across one of the few magazines on the break room table. Of course, once I saw that there was an article about the Twilight cast members from the cover of Life & Style magazine, I immediately grabbed it and flipped quickly to the page, looking for it frantically. So according to Life & Style, Twilight is kinda coming to life, besides the whole vampire thing. Nikki Reed, who plays Rosalie, likes Robert Pattinson, I mean who wouldn't, he's just drop dead gorgeous. But Robert Pattinson likes Kristen Stewart... NOOOOO!! Don't remind me!! (Yup, I read Life & Style magazine's previous feature article on Robert Pattinson's crush on Kristen Stewart too. But I'm over it now.) But Kristen Stewart already has a boyfriend of 2 years with that guy who plays Jack's son on Will and Grace, I think his name is Michael something. Anyways my roommate just totally hated Kristen Stewart after I told her this because she had a crush on that guy before and she likes Edward Cullen too, not as much as I do, but for me, it's a totally unhealthy obsession. Anyways, a part of me thinks that maybe this is all just publicity for Twilight, both the movie and books. It's cool and adds more to the movie when it's actually kinda real. Or maybe I'm just in denial. Even though I loved Ryan Gosling and Rachel McAdams together (Did they get back together? I feel like I heard that somewhere. Well I'll get back to you on that soon.), even though I rooted for them, I'm not wishing for Robert Pattinson to get with Kristen Stewart, because I want him all for myself.

MTV... WTF are you thinking?! Bromance... are you serious?? First there was Paris Hilton's My New BFF, then this?! When I first saw the commercial for it, I was convinced it was a joke. Reality shows are just getting out of hand. This is just plain retarded. I don't even watch The Hills anymore nor did I even attempt to watch The City, as much as I loved Whitney... I'm sorry, I just don't think you're exciting enough to watch.

Dang, Jennifer Aniston, you are looking hot hot hot. I was always team Aniston.

I just looked it up and... Ryan Gosling and Rachel McAdams are back together according to Us magazine on August 20, 2008. I guess I'm a little late on the news. But YAY! I'm happy for them, my favorite celebrity couple.

Boys Dragged Shopping With Their Girlfriends

It's so funny to see boys sitting there, bored out of their minds, staring out into the distance, all zoned out, while their girlfriend is shopping away. They have that "this is the 50 bajillionth store we've gone to." Poor guys. Haha. The look on their face is priceless. There are some who actively express their opinion to their girlfriend's picks and then there are the ones who just sit there guarding the many shopping bags that surround them.

I'm done, It's over, The end... Bye bye

So here I am, all alone in my room catching up on Lipstick Jungle and eating a late night dinner consisting of the finest cuisine, General Tso's chicken. I was watching House earlier, but then I realized watching all that blood and medical procedures wasn't the smartest choice to go along with my meal. My roommate has already left, along with many others. Her side of the room is all clean and kind of empty, while my side of the room is all messy with clothes scattered on my bed, my straighter and blow dryer still plugged in and sitting on my desk, and shoes all over the floor. I should be packing to leave also but (1) I'm too lazy and (2) I've been meaning to write this entry ever since I've finished my finals.

Yup I've been done with finals since Friday, ended at a little after 1pm. It felt good. I haven't been able to get much sleep during finals week, fearing that I might miss my final by accidentally sleeping in. I remember nights tossing and turning in my sleep, and I had a random incident when I jolted awake and immediately turned on the light to get ready, but then I realized it was 6am and went back to sleep. But anyways, it's over now. Another semester has passed. This one was just flew by. But along with this semester, the year 2008 is soon coming to an end. I shall be back about my recap on the year 2008 and some new year's resolutions.

A Normal Day at Work

I love seeing guys buying Christmas gifts for their girlfriends. The clueless, confused look is cute on them. Especially today when a cute Italian boy came into the store to buy something for his girlfriend back home. Cute Italian boy with a cute Italian accent, I hope there are more of those in Rome when I'm there.

A story told by one of my co-workers: This girl got her nipple pierced and there was this white thing sticking out so she cut it. Well, it ended up being a nerve ending and when she cut it, she puked at the same time. Eww... I know. Now I want to puke too.

And my co-workers made fun of me for having a blog. :( Well I wouldn't really call this a real blog, half the time I'm talking about Twilight or Robert Pattinson and the other half I'm talking about my boring life.

My Perfect, Dream Scenario

It's slightly snowing, flurries tonight. You're standing under the streetlamp light with a cute, no hot guy with a nice smile aka Robert Pattinson. He pulls out mistletoe and says something witty. He brushes a strand of hair away from your face, his cold fingers touching your cheeks lightly in the process, then he kisses you... and then you guys go inside and have hot, wild sex. lol jk, no no i'm not haha

Well if I can't have that, I want a fireplace, a nice soft blanket, some hot chocolate with marshmallows because I like marshmallows, and a hot guy in a cabin.

One rainy Thursday morning...

Why you must blast your ipod in the quiet computer lab for everyone to hear the exact lyrics to your music is beyond my understanding...

Now I'm going to go back to watching lipstick jungle, a reward for getting up at 6am to take my mass comm final this morning. I hate writing essays in class for finals. At least it's over with. Now I just have my blaw final tomorrow then I'm free!!

My Twilight Review

Of course, as expected, the movie wasn't nearly as great as the book, but then again, when is it ever. I'm sleepy but I want to write my opinion on it while it's still all fresh in my mind. There's a lot I want to say. So I'm going to list... (and just in case I let some things slip, there might be some spoilers, so consider yourselves warned)

1. Sadly, there was a lot left out, like the part where she passes out from the blood in biology class and the airport scenes. It seemed kind of emptier than the book. I don't know if there wasn't enough of the fight scene or enough of the important information given in the book that made it seem empty... but I feel like there wasn't enough content in the movie, a bit disappointing. Even though the movie can't be EXACTLY like the book and they have to take some parts out, I think it could've been better.

2. I couldn't help squealing about Edward.

3. Did you notice Stephenie Meyer in the movie? She put herself in the movie in one of the diner scenes. She was the one with the mac in the diner.

4. Um... Bella is a horny slut, well I wouldn't blame her. I want to have sex with Edward Cullen too.

5. I even said this before watching the movie and it was true. They just revealed too much in the trailer. I feel like I already saw the whole movie from the trailer. There wasn't much that was new in the movie. They practically showed a glimpse of every scene in the trailer.

6. I don't like Bella's voice or Edward's that was not the velvet voice I imagined. I didn't like his acting in the beginning either. It was just too forced and he was overdoing everything. I mean, I know he's supposed to be really tense around her and stuff but geez. And at some parts, he needed to work on his American accent more (I don't know how to explain this), I kind of feel like that's why his voice wasn't so great, because he was concentrating too much on the American accent. He got better towards the end, but then Bella's acting started getting worse towards the end, the hospital scene, when she stutters.

7. Did you notice how he wore the same blue button down and grey jacket like three days straight?? (But I loved it on him.)

8. OMG I loved Alice!

9. Jasper barely said a word throughout the whole movie. How much is he getting paid for that?? lol Oh and come to think of it, Emmett too. What happened to the whole, "She's not one of us," saying from the trailer. I'm interested in seeing the deleted scenes.

10. I would say my favorite scene of the movie was the baseball scene.

11. So I finally know how to say Carlisle's name. haha

12. You could see all the powder make up on them.

13. I'm mad that they made Edward seem like he couldn't control it at the end, when he sucks her blood to get the venom out. But in the book, I remember him being able to stop himself and say something about tasting the morphine in her blood. They just totally changed that up.

[I think I'm done, might be back with more stuff. Things keep popping up in my mind.]

14. I absolutely hated the part when she walks off into the forest and does her little monologue about him. It was so cheesy.
15. I could barely feel/see the love/romance and the passion between them from the movie to the extent that it really is (from the book), and how amazing he truly is. The movie did not do him justice.

The more I think about it, the more I'm disappointed in the movie. I wouldn't buy the DVD nor would I watch it again, except once more because I told my sister I'd take her when I get back for Thanksgiving break. The book was much much better. Sometimes, I wish I could erase my memory of Twilight and read it all over again.

Near Death Experience

Saturday night around 1am, my (black, remember this, it's an important part to the story) friend, Tiffanie, from Virginia never had the chicken and rice at 53th and 6th. So instead of going to a party and stopping by on the way back, we just decided to get chicken and rice only because we were too lazy to go all the way to Queens to party. Being that it was 1am in the financial districtish area downtown, there wasn't that many people on the train besides this one other big, smelly black lady wearing skinny people clothes, as Tiffanie would put it, like those scrunchy tops and leggings. She was mumbling to herself and walking around and switching from seat to seat. Since it was the last stop, we were just sitting there for awhile. Then this guy with a white poncho (with a pointed hood) got on the train... but from my peripheral vision, I thought it was the KKK, and Tiffanie saw it from a reflection and thought the same thing. We both freaked out inside and looked over to get a better look, then we looked at each other and gave the "Oh shit! Did you see that?" look. He just walked on from one side of the train and got off the other. It was quite scary at the moment. We seriously thought it was the KKK. He would've killed us both.

p.s. This has been annoying me for a while, but... I hate how my fonts are different on certain entries depending on what computer I post from, even when I put Georgia, small, or does it only come up like that for me? I want consistency dammit!!

I'm in love...

I seriously think I'm in love with Edward Cullen. Call me crazy but I've never felt this way about a fictional character before. After reading through Sophie Kinsella's books, I've said things like, where is my Jack Harper (from Can You Keep a Secret?) or Luke Brandon (from the Shopaholic series)? But with Edward, it's not, where is my Edward Cullen? It's more like, I want Edward Cullen!...

I love Edward Cullen and I want his venom to poison my system.

I have ADD...

So obviously, I went home to vote. I've only been home twice this semester compared to the numerous times I went home last year, practically every weekend possible. But now that I've found my comfort out here, it feels weird to go back home, but kind of nice at the same time. It feels like I've grown up and officially moved out, and now I'm going home to visit my family. Paramus still feels like home, but a bit of a distant home, like a place that once was my home, home to old memories and friends, but now my home was out here. And I'm not even quite sure where here is either, New York, possibly. I didn't think I'd feel this way so soon. I just feel like I've grown old for Paramus. The little changes that appear while I'm gone are increasing. But when I am back, it's a bit of a cozy feeling. I feel like I grew up there (Paramus), but I didn't, I just had my best memories there, made the best friends there. I feel like I'm not giving justice to my feelings in this explanation, but I'm sure some of you might understand what I'm feeling, or maybe it's just Kathy and me who feel this way lol.

Also, I recently paid my deposit for studying abroad next semester. It's official! I can't turn back now. I mean, I could but that would be a waste of $250, right?

I'm also really excited about Twilight!! You have no idea...

AND OF COURSE, BARACK OBAMA, OUR NEW PRESIDENT!! As Sarah said, "we're making history!" It is pretty amazing.

For some strange reason, it feels like last Christmas was a LONG time ago, not just a little over a year ago. So thus that makes me super excited for Christmas this year. Hm... what did I even do for Christmas last year? I can't even remember. But first, I gotta get through Thanksgiving. Honestly, I don't really like Thanksgiving all that much. Gasp, I know I know. It's just, it's kind of boring and a bit lonely, it's only my parents, my sister and me. My mom's side all live in Korea. It's just we don't really celebrate Thanksgiving the BIG family, everyone get together kind of way. I mean it's still nice spending time with my family. I like that. I love my dysfunctional family very much. But spending time with my family during Christmas is much more fun. I don't know. Just how I feel. I don't hate Thanksgiving. It's just not one of my favorites, that's all.

And omgosh, while I was home, since there's actually trees there unlike out here, I realized how beautiful autumn/fall is. When I got outside, the weather was so nice and still, the leaves on the trees were such beautiful colors, vibrant red and yellow, and some of the leaves were slowly falling to the ground, swaying from side to side as it fell. It literally stopped me in my tracks as I was on my way to my car to pick up Kathy. This is the nice part about coming home. It added to that whole feeling I tried to explain above. Okay, I should get some sleep and stop this random, pointless entry.

YAY! I VOTED!!

Yup! I voted today, went to the polls and voted... and it was SO confusing. There were just so many names and I didn't know if it was going from left to right or up and down. After I voted for Obama for president, I didn't know what to do next. I didn't know where all the local or other stuff was. I was seriously considering submitting just that. I was about to peek my head out to ask for help but I didn't know if they were allowed to help me after I've already gone in and stuff... so I just stood there for awhile looking all helplessly confused. haha Then I realized and just voted for all democratic without even looking at the names, I know that's kind of bad, but I was just a bit overwhelmed... and confused and I panicked. I'll do better next time. But I voted!

The Day After Halloween

(I'm gonna try to blog almost everyday.)

I spent my Halloween night in my room with my friends watching Forgetting Sarah Marshall. I didn't go out because 1) I didn't have any money for a costume and I didn't really feel like spending that much on a costume... this happens every year, 2) I'm a lazy bum, and 3) I had work the next morning at 7am.

Then the craziest thing happened at work that Saturday morning. So we had these decorations at work, which were like clear, glass vases, that we were throwing out. On Friday night, we put them away in boxes and the manager informed the sanitation company that it would be out there to be picked up. But they never ended up picking it up since it was still there Saturday morning. So my manager just decided to give it a little time and leave it out there just in case they came to pick it up later that morning. At 8am, it was still out there. Then at around 8:20am when my manager went out there to get the door, the glass was smashed all over the sidewalk and road. I looked like someone had ripped open the boxes, took out the glass vases and threw them around. The store is on the corner, and the glasses was on both sides of the corners, so it couldn't have been that some like hit it with a car. But all the glass was broken, not one vase was intact. Then this crazy lady was yelling at us. She was saying how the garbage shouldn't be out on that side of the corner to begin with because that's not where it gets picked up but my manager explained to her that we have a contract with our own sanitation company that picks it up on that corner and the lady was yelling back saying not to call her a liar then she started to complain about the big plant pots we have in front of the store saying that was against landmark regulations or something. She just kept yelling at us about all the glass and that we did this and how she had pictures of it all and we wouldn't get away this, saying that she was gonna call Mickey Drexler (the CEO of Jcrew). My manager then asked her to stop harassing her employees and then the lady just started screaming that she wasn't harassing her employees. Then my manager asked her to relax and then the lady just exploded and started to tell my manager not to talk to her, not to say a word to her. I was standing there laughing inside at this crazy woman. Yes lady, we deliberately put those boxes of glass out there to be broken on purpose so no one comes to our store. Halfway through this conversation, this guy and I were cleaning it up. While we were still sweeping it all up after the talking stopped, the lady just stood there and watched us and stopped every person on the street to tell them that we did this and that this store was owned by Jcrew. We're kind of convinced she did it. Lady, it's 8am in the morning... go home, go sleep, what is wrong with you. There's supposedly some lady who lives around there that always comes around to yell at us about something and complain like a crazy woman. If it was the same woman, one of my coworkers thinks she was having an episode or something. She was kind of psycho. So that was my Saturday morning, the day after Halloween.

What a pleasant surprise

I love it when you get the first direct deposit paycheck. You never know which paycheck is going to be directly deposited into your account so when it happens, it's like SURPRISE!! It's like free money but not really. Anyways, it just makes me happy and I just wanted to share. I'm sure some of you have felt this way or know what I'm talking about... I'm not crazy :)

Mind Overload

My thought process is going to explode trying to get all this out. Five days without a computer and no time to write in my journal can't be good for the mind. Well it's not like I have time now, I should be packing for school but I have the laundry running and I'm about to enjoy the best lamyun I've had in years.

"First of all, I'd like to start off my saying it's really humid, not that I wasn't warned. But I'm glad it's not T-storming like weather.com predicted. There was a lot of uncomfortable and tiring traveling but we're finally here." That's all I got to write in my journal before everyone came storming into my room to play that first night. Cancun was AWESOME, perfect to the very last bit. There's so much to say that I'm just going to list a bunch of memorable things.
- taking a picture with Greek God David and hearing Sarah "omg i think you're soooooo hott"
- getting drunk and dancing on bar tables like typical Cancun spring break happenings without the spring break
- jumping at the chance to go on stage to win a t-shirt with no clue to what we might have to do
announcer: it's a striptease
all the girls: what?!?!?!
announcer: just kidding, it's a beer chugging contest
[my team ended up winning but they gave us some cheap plastic gold medal necklace thingys instead]
sarah: HEY where's our shirts?!?!?
- playing catch phrase (and losing all the games UGH!!)
kathy: iraq
dave: iran?
kathy: YEA
mike: (static noise)
WALKIE TALKIE!!
- playing chinese poker in the pool all day
- getting ready for the dinners
- getting a major wedgie on the wave runner
- getting motion sickness on the parasail
- PARTAY HOPPERSSS (clubbing/ bars)
- tequila timeee
- Satisfaction by Benny Benassi and Don't Cry For Me Argentina our trip theme song
- "macho macho man i wanna be a macho man"
- sarah (on the airplane): i wonder if we go high enough we could see the borderlines of the states
- [our seats being 16D and 16E] tori: a, b, c, d, e OH OHH WE'RE NEXT TO EACH OTHER!!
The only regret I have from this trip is that we didn't take pictures at the club.

so much EXCITEMENT

This week has been going by so freaking slowly, but FINALLY, tomorrow is Friday. YAY!! Cancun is soo close. It came quicker than I thought it would. Good thing it's an early flight; I wouldn't have been able to sleep anyways. I love this period of anticipation so much that sometimes I have a problem with enjoying things at the moment when it's actually happening. But when I get excited, I get EXCITED (you know what I'm talking about)!! My mom always yells at me to control myself because I tend to get really scatter-brained when I get too excited, which leads me to be prone to losing things. But when I am able to slip away from the exciting event and think, I always think about how quickly everything just flew by me that I wasn't able to enjoy every aspect to the fullest and how quickly it will come to an end. While I've been working this summer, I've come to value the weekend greatly and when Friday is finally here, instead of thinking of the weekend, I think about the upcoming Monday and how this vicious cycle will start again. I guess I always need something to look forward to, that's it. I think this is part of the reason to why I love the airport so much, well it's more like the clicking that your suitcase makes as you find your way through the airport that I love. I love that sound because I familiarize it with the airport and the airport means you're going somewhere. It goes hand in hand with why I love packing but hate unpacking. Packing means you're going somewhere and unpacking means you're back and you're going... nowhere :( Sigh, I'm having such a hard time writing this because I'm so freaking excited!! I must calm myself, be professional, I am at work. But I want to scream and do a little dance, get down tonight. Ok ok inhale, exhale.

I'm surprisingly pretty excited about going back to school too, not just going back to see school friends excited, but going to class excited. I know I'm gonna regret saying that, especially when I need to get myself up for a 7:30am class or when I'm studying for exams. As much as I love this mindless job, I can't keep doing this forever. I want to go to class. I want to study. I feel like my brain is rotting. Reading is the only thing that's keeping me sane. Ten more days until I move back to school and thirteen more days until I start classes. Until then, everything's going to fly by. It's gonna be corazzy!!

Pilot

Mmm... yes conformity, I have left xanga too and matured to a blogspot (it's not like I wrote in it everyday anyways, which doesn't guarantee that writing in this will be any more successful). But this works out for the better. Xanga is blocked at work so while I'm terribly bored and only physically here as my mind wanders elsewhere (like cancun), I've only been able to read the subs that get emailed to me and I would write down my incomplete thoughts in email drafts to be posted on xanga later at home, but never do because I can't even stay up past midnight anymore. Sad, I know. So YAY now I can write down the thoughts that are running around in my head while I'm doing all this mindless office work. Even though I only have a week left, I'm excited to waste my work hours away on writing on this blog. It's gonna be one long ass week with all this anticipation for CANCUN!! I can't believe it's actually happening after many failed attempts to plan a big trip somewhere. I can't wait to feel the soft, white sand between my toes and watch the sunset fall into the endless ocean (yes yes all that cliche stuff. oh! and moonlight walks on the beach)... but hopefully I'll remember it all. Nah mean?

P.S. You have no idea how long it took me to figure out a URL name. EVERYTHING was taken and desperately wanting to insert my name into it, I had to resort to adding an extra e to my last name. But do you like my title?? Get it... these thoughts are out of my mind now as I record them on this blog and I'm crazy like I'm out of my mind!! Haha well, I like it. YES! I have successfully wasted the past paid hour on making this blogspot and now less than a hour remains until the weekend. UPS has stated that my package has been delivered! I have the weekend to christen my new camera, how perfect!